To be alive

   My "Ground Hog"Life

I wake up Again!  And I know one knows and I'm sure know one cares...

 I hear the irrational nail on the chalk board squeaking of the alarm radio as I slowy drift into to consciousness and think to myself.."Shit, I'm awake again!"  My life  has become the venerable movie "Ground Hog Day", you know the one with Bill Murray as the star of a hapless, apathetic, rude, self absorb, washed up reporter who awakens everyday to the same routuine. To others it's a
new day, to Bill it's the same day...everyday...day upon day upon day...days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, and months turn into years... The moral of the movie is, this is hell and welcome one and all to the party; this is a special place for those of you whom are mean, rude, etc. and belive me...it Is hell!
    Everyday I awake to the same sounds, same smell of coffee brewing, the same routine of taking the dogs out, feeding them, getting my wife coffee and breakfest, watch her get ready for work, watch her leave, blow kisses, and then turn and look at me hell...
   The door looms before me like an evil grinning brown maw. Dare I walk in, dare I go in, dare, I stay here, or dare I just run away? I relent, my head down, looking at the grayish pebble concrete sidewalk reaching and stretching out before me...the long trek back to hell...my hell...the house...Slowly, methodically one foot I front of the other, I shuffle, as if walking to the gallows...
   I reach for the door, open it, step inside hell and look around at the world...slowly, cautiously, with great trepidation and angst, I step-inside. I close the door to the echoing sound of doom. I look around the foyer into the living room and dread washes through me as realzation takes hold....a disembodied voice resonates in my ears..." Welcome home dumbass"!
   I cover my ears close my eyes so tight the tears run. The voice does not go away instead it reverberates a few more times until the deathly quiet hush of silence replaces the cacophony of noise.
    I stand erect, walk slowly to the kitchen for my fourth cup of coffee of the day and the silence continues... It follows me from room to room until I embark on my delusional sanctuary...the bedroom. Silence tapes me on the shoulder to remind me it would be here Allllll...dayyyyyy....loooooonnnnggggg!
     I fall onto the bed shuffling my three dogs out of their blissful little dreams and begin to feel the exhuberence surround me...a lick here, a lick there, a moan,a bark, and reminder to "hey pet me"...I roll over and smile at one of life precious little joys I have left; Yes my dogs! I lay with them cajoling them to wrestle and bark and just act like dogs...for a single moment I am alive...just that moment, I still have 23 hours of silence, boredom, repetitiveness, and so on and so on and so on....
    God please relase me from this hell...I fall asleep again... I wake up again....the alarm clock drones it's, montanous tone...again...I open my eyes, and slowly realize, it's the same day....Again!

Health care gone awry.

Doctors doing it to us again

   I want a doctors job.... You get up go to work, see X number of patients,go home at five and have a drink or two, go to bed , get up, go to work, go home at fi e etc etc etc... No call, no admissions, no hospital visits, no ED responses,... And well they have a 9-5 job... Wow, I want this job...

     Gone are the days of Doctrs admitting patients, taking care of your needs, and doing what they signed up to do and that is treat you according standard practice of medicine, Hippocratic oath, and the medical practice act... Bit only are physicians bound to provide the minimalist of care for you they are bound by law to take care of you. 

  Another case scenario, your othropedic surgeon tells you you need a specific type of surgery, first the insurance companies, haggle over whether they will approve it or not, then do the surgery, charge you 20,000$ And your still left with Anesthisist bills, radiology bills, lab bills X-ray bills, office visits, any treatments and of course medicine... And then if you miss a 20.00$ payment they send you to collections and well you know the rest.

    When did doctors stop caring? I wish I could take those of you that were not alive in the sixties and seventies to show you the beauty of healthcare...before greedy corporations took over health care... It was fantastic to go to work and know you were going to make a difference in someone's life. Not today, welcome to revolving doe, convert belt medicine where you are overhead and profit , all in one. Oh they love you being sick, but only be sick for a specific amount of time... God forbid you step outside the insurance guidelines or DRG's...this is a guide insurance companies use to tell how long you a patient should be I the hospital otherwise the insurance companies can refuse to pay because the hospital, physicans didn't not follow the care desk abated by the insurance carrier. In other words you are a statistic, a line on a chart, a number in a computer...you don't matter. 

   Please joi. Me in rev among the medical system by, elmanatimg all corporate drive owned hospitals and go back to the way hospitals were designed. To care for people.  All people, and stop the avarice practice of physicans and insurance. We can change it all....just do something...

Whistle Blowers are Hero's

     With out people like Edward Snowden andHero's like him our country would continue to spiral unchecked into a tyrannical mire of corruption and Gestapo tactics.
     Why do we place whistle blowers in a bad light when in all actuality they should be hailed as Hero's. They protect us from corrupt companies, corrupt politicians, corrupt law enforcement, corrupt judicial system, and dangerous work places etc... But yet when the media calls you a whistle blower is is akin to being called a conspiracy theorist, which of course makes one believe you have seen a Big foot or chuppacabbra..
     The media loves names they name storms, they nickname serial killers, sports heros, now even winter storms have names...Nemo, Ione...the media is the last bastion that needs a serious overhaul. They lie, they slant, they form and provide opinions, worse they make the news irrelevant. By being edgy, cute, repetitive, and what ever pop fader there is for the day...
     I want the name whistle blower stricken from the English language and replaced with names such as Patrick Henryism, Nathanal Halealites, etc. it wasn't long ago a small contingency of Americans pulled together and said enough is enough to tyranny and with the help of France and countless sacrificed lives, we not only conquered a nation we set a precedent that Americans are not a rug for nations and tyrants to wipe their feet on.
    But that is gone, gone the way of corporations, crooked politicians, greedy entrepreneurs, talk show hosts with about as much intelligence  as a slug and boys who throw and catch balls for a living making millions of dollars. The Americans that save lives, make your clothes, teach your children, dispose of your trash, mow your yards are what... Citizens to be admired? Citizens to envy? Citizens you aspire to be? Sadly no... People like you only think of what you can get out of it and what it will cost...
    America stand up, shout out, stop agreeing and start acting like Americans. Revolt, replace, and Revive this country to its greatest strength... Please.... Thank you Mr. Snowden.., thank you sir...
   

We all know he planned and executed this infamous day.

He knew, he planned, he implemented, and he executed the day we all remember...who are the real terrorist? They live among us and we vote them in office.

Test the meat!!!! But beware it isn't pig....

Living with Cancer and pain

Doctors are breaking the Hippocratic Oath to " do no harm"

     Doctors are not only causing harm but guilty of numerous patients committing suicide because they can no longer receive treatment for their chronic pain.

    Another morning. And another day of unrelenting and unrelieved pain...the so called doctors are now so afraid of being audited by regulatory agencies that patients with real need are being left to their own devices... I am not talking about drug abusers and dealers, I am talking about patients with a myriad of disease process and pain...how do doctors in good conscience allow patients to suffer? 

    Now are their substance abusers, addicts, drug dealers, pharmacy robberies, patients selling their meds, patients doctor shopping, patents filling scripts at different pharmacies, etc etc etc? You bet, that's the nature of the beast with any addictive substance be it Alcohol to food...you will always have addicts and you will never solve it, all you can do is manage it. But the DEA, and FDA, and local health depts, feel it is their patriarchal duty to slap the hand that takes medications that combat pain.

    I believe the only answer is to file law suits against all doctors who started you on a pain management routine only to discharge you or stop your treatment all together.The doctors will blame the government when it's not the government, but doctors who don't follow the letter of the law In Dispensing narcotics. So now millions of honest people are again left hopeless and without.

     Please join me in finding an attorney with a spine to go after the Doctors and sue them for Negligence which the law defines as: 1) Failure to provide appropriate treatment for a medical condition;

2) Unreasonable delay in treating a diagnosed medical condition;

Together we can fight this and win, but we have to unite and not capitulate. Please, please help me and others to stop this egregious unwarranted behavior. 

Stand for the Silent

Stand for the Silent

I am trying desperately to launch a chapter of Stand for the Silent, here in my home town of Surfside Beach/ Myrtle Beach. I need help organizes and implementing the ground work for success. If you know or yourself would like to be a part of something bigger than yourself write me ASAP. 

This needs to be done because if we can save just one child from committing suicide because of being bullied then we will have saved that child and others from the harassing and endless torture purveyed by Bully's. Stand up, shout out, and stop bullying.